dear buddha. i thank you greatly for allowing me to evolve as a human being, to transform my personality and adapt to my surroundings. i am in constant appreciation for the abilities i have, the creative and intellectual potential my mind has, and the discoveries i seem to make every second. this beautiful world, the one i used to be so inclined to mistrust, has taken shape. i no longer pessimistically see that which is headed for disaster, but rather the spaces in-between. those i can fill in. all i want in this world is to be able to maintain and build on the incredible energy of my soul, transmit it to other human beings and transform lives, spiritually and mentally. my greatest desire is to create something so beautiful, love it so passionately, and allow someone else to share in that beauty and appreciate it intensely. i would love to live in venice beach, a small apartment overlooking ocean tide. someplace where i can be connected to sea and concrete intermittently. i lust after knowledge and beautiful instances of life. i long to appreciate all the melodious sounds around me, the poignant intellectual progress that has been made and hidden away in otherwise ordinary instances. i want to be the most amazing human being i can possibly be, and i hope for that to translate to other people. get back into the rhythm of writing, drawing, collaging, never allowing my mind to be anything other than active and rapid. i am a human being, and i am alive, and i want to take full advantage of that.